I just can’t kid myself anymore.

I can’t continue to think that I mean anything at all to you.

But I do anyway.

Everybody must think I’m crazy,

But it isn’t like their white lies help me in the long run.

The line dividing fantasy, memories, and reality,

Is no longer distinguishable.

Somebody please save me from this ocean of emotion.

I’m drowning in a sea of sadness,

My sense being carried away by your current,

My heart floating to the surface, swelling with you inside.

But I’m still at the bottom, weighed down by all the pain you’ve caused me.

I’m alone, and no one can save me.

Somebody… save me.

Well.. this morning I had a cross country meet. It sucked ass. After I ran, I puked again. Then I sat on the bus alone and blasted my iPod and bought huge soda. Then I went home and got ready. Then I went to Sean's party. We listened to songs like Barbie Girl. haha. Then we tried to blow up these bracelet balloons. "It gets bigger when you squeeze it." oh yes. Then we watched Wrong Turn. Hilarious stuff right there. I had to leave in the middle. Then I went to Samm's Cross Country party. We played cards, and then we all hung out in the basement and watched music videos and stuff. The guys kept turning on porn.. it was delightful. Then we got them to turn on "Sex Talk with Sue Johanson." It was this 80-yr-old woman giving sex advice to her callers. "I like that.. I like that." We caught Jake with his hands down his pants. haha. She explained where you can and cannot get warts.. apparently warts like the rectal area. We flipped back and forth between that and SNL for a while. Then we went home. The end. Bye.